Open Memoir - A Single Christian Woman - My Mind, My Heart, My God - What's Happening?!

 

I told my friend, Rachel, recently, that I'd had a "small" miracle--a God Incident, the previous day. I went on to explain that I had been searching on and off for a specific book that I had read years ago and could never find again. But that, yesterday, I thought of it again and suddenly 5 words popped into my mind. I went to my blog, searched those words, and found the book!

I then went out, bought the ebook, which I've been reading mostly because of my eyes, and opening, started to read. It was a different book entirely. Yet, it wasn't... 

Many readers of my blog will notice that the only books about which I give negative comments are those that have proofreading or structural issues. If I don't like the book itself, for personal reasons, I will state that as objectively as I can. You see, I believe that a writer has the right to write the book they want to write... So, of course, as you know, I don't agree with banning books!

On the other hand, I explained that the formatting of the original book was really a problem for me, so I wrote a "This is not a review" post about what I saw as a manuscript rather than all the other things that were needed to make it a book. I told Rachel that I probably would have offered to help edit the book...

In any event years have passed, but there was always something about the subject of the book that spoke to me, gently nudging me to want to read that book... So, as I started reading, I immediately saw that it had been totally rewritten, easy to read, and I felt a quiet joy as I read and read and read...until my ebook died! LOL

But I had read enough to go out and look to see if he had written any other books since then. And bought it too. noting that the cover was beautiful! Now I'm reading both of them simultaneously.

So, why is a book significant enough for me to include it as part of my memoir? Well, the book(s) is not just a "little" miracle, but a very big miracle. And, certainly, I now have no doubt, that God brought the book into my mind AT THIS TIME, because there just may be THE ANSWER I have been looking for... And, I know, that Rachel has been looking for. Can't wait until I talk to her about it!

More and more people are talking about religion... And not in a good way. I've read so many different books where people remain confused even as christians, or they choose to call themselves agnostic, or even atheist, because of what they've seen or learned about various religions, including Christianity... 

More importantly, I now see daily what is CAUSED by religion across the world... Especially regarding the war which has begun in Israel where a terrorist group, Hamas, has brought violence out of tunnels into a place where dancing and music was happening....

I've always enjoyed the music from Fiddler on the Roof and thought of it first when I heard that those coming together were at an outside music festival, only to be slaughtered, I, along with millions, were horrified... And, there is a deep feeling of wrongness, a sense of awareness that another country, Iran, who financially supports Hamas, is also a country, like Israel, which is based upon religion! A different religion, yet still a religion in which, perhaps, millions accept and believe in...

So, if I may assume, just for a moment, that God has placed the name of an author, Tim Speiss, into my mind, who seems to be the author that God now wants me to read and learn from, then I am willing to use my mind to do so. My heart is so full of anguish and confusion as to what is happening in America (and the world). I KNOW God is NOT behind any of it. And I ask how can I? How can WE know the Truth?

The spirit of My God is upon me and I know that Tim Speiss' words are a way to that Truth, if not the only way!

I find that, like Tim, I want to use different words. Even in my mind as editing always is part of my reading, I find I do not want to capitalize Christianity any more. Tim said somewhere that he does not now think of himself as a christian... But what am I if a word that I have valued and used for over 70 years has now become tarnished in shame of how violence is now directly tied to it, for instance, an insurrection toward America?

I've viewed the first video above several times because it is fast-paced. But no matter how fast it goes, there are images flashing throughout that have touched me, and I find myself agreeing, yes, yes... Now what?

Sooo, since I wanted to know more, I've joined "The Peaceful Revolution which is part of Tim Spiess' activities... But then, I'm also looking forward to reading Losing My Religion which was re-prioritized for reading once I found both of Tim's books. 

And while I'm at it, since it popped up on YouTube when I was looking for music, I stopped to listen to a review of my "astrology" for September. I've always been intrigued by astrology, because, frankly, it is fun to read. I've never been one who looked to the stars, etc., but I did enjoy reviewing the characteristics of one sign versus another and how they matched potential friends... I have to say that most of the time, they are similar to what I found with those I knew... Except...

I have seen and known individuals with the same sign who, based upon age and life experiences may be entirely different in relation to the level of their objectiveness. And, that was a key issue pointed out in this video in relation to my relationships with other people. Using my own words of what she said, and in relation to what I've been talking about, I have been very open to exploring many different life issues, and, because of that; for instance, through becoming a book reviewer, I've continued to learn, evaluate, and grow in relation to my opinions and my beliefs. And, because of that, I have become different to friends or relatives who have remained stagnant in their lives, and have drawn apart. 

It's not a matter of whether that is good or bad. It is what it is, as they say. However, as it relates to just one word. Truth. It makes a big difference when it comes to the actual way we live, based upon our beliefs and the opinions formed. Does that make me a black sheep in relation to others? And is that good or bad? As I write this book, and consider all that is happening in my life, maybe, just maybe, I'll  begin to further realize and even willingly accept, indeed, that I am now living God's plan for my life, wondering and waiting to see What's Happening...

Hey, I'm still young enough to know that I have more to learn--much more! And, maybe, just maybe, I'll write the words that reveal what my life has been all about living in an...unprecedented...time...

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