The hallway felt colder somehow, less enchanted. She carried the baby monitor with her, its plastic warm from her grip. Her husband had gone to bed hours ago, exhausted from work. She understood his fatigue but missed the early days when they'd both been home, taking turns with the baby, discovering their new reality together.
"Laws are for people without the means to transcend them."
Her body was tired—bone-deep exhausted in the way that only new mothers understand—but her mind was still half in the nursery, hovering protectively over the crib. As sleep began to claim her, Lulu's last conscious thought was of gratitude—for the perfect child sleeping down the hall, for the husband breathing beside her, for the home that held them all safely within its walls. Everything that mattered in her world was here, protected, secure.
Clarissa's hands shook so badly she had to try three times to fit the key into the ignition. Annie's cries from the back seat had escalated to a full-throated wail that matched the storm brewing inside her chest. The birth certificate lay on the passenger seat where she'd tossed it, the manila envelope splayed open like a wound. Forgery. The word repeated in her mind with each beat of her heart. Not a clerical error or a bureaucratic mishap, but a deliberate deception crafted by someone—most likely her own mother. Clarissa drew in a deep breath, trying to steady herself as she reached for her phone—one more avenue to explore before confronting LaToya directly. "Shh, Annie, please," she pleaded, twisting in her seat to look at her daughter. Annie's face had flushed a deep red, tiny fists batting at the air as if fighting invisible demons. "I know, baby. I know. Everything feels wrong to me, too." She performed a quick Google search, fingers tapping impatiently against the steering wheel as the results loaded. Memphis General Hospital. Main switchboard. The number glowed on her screen like a lifeline. She pressed the call button, then engaged the car's Bluetooth system. Annie's cries competed with the ringing phone, creating a chaotic soundtrack to her racing thoughts. "Memphis General Hospital, how may I direct your call?" A woman's crisp voice emerged from the car speakers. "Records department, please," Clarissa said, then added, "Birth records, specifically." "One moment." Music filled the car—a tinny rendition of something classical, interrupted periodically by a recorded voice assuring her that her call was important. Clarissa's leg bounced against the floor mat, a nervous habit she'd never been able to break. She reached into the back seat, finding Annie's tiny hand with her fingers. The baby grasped her index finger tightly, her cries subsiding slightly at the contact. "It's going to be okay," Clarissa whispered, unsure if she was reassuring Annie or herself. "We'll figure this out." The hold music had cycled through three complete iterations when Annie's fussing escalated again. Clarissa unbuckled her seatbelt and climbed awkwardly into the back seat, contorting her body in the small space. She offered the baby her pinky finger to suck on—a temporary pacifier until she could find the real one buried somewhere in the diaper bag. "Birth Records, this is Administrator Grayson." A man's voice suddenly cut through Annie's whimpers, startling them both. Clarissa scrambled back to the driver's seat, breathless from the quick movement. "Yes, hello. My name is Clarissa Jones. I'm trying to verify my birth records from February 16th, 1993." She could hear the clicking of computer keys in the background as the administrator responded, "Give me just a moment to access that time period. Our records from the nineties were digitized about five years ago, so this shouldn't take long." More clicking followed. Clarissa found herself holding her breath, the air trapped in her lungs like the truth trapped in her past. Annie had quieted temporarily, distracted by a toy attached to her car seat. "Jones, you said? Clarissa Jones?" the administrator confirmed. "Yes. February 16th, 1993." Her voice sounded strange to her own ears, too high and tight. The clicking stopped. "I'm sorry, Ms. Jones, but I don't show any record of your birth at Memphis General during that time period. I've checked a month in either direction as well, in case there was a dating error." Clarissa closed her eyes, the final hope she'd been clinging to dissolving like sugar in hot water. "Could the records have been lost during digitization? Or misfiled somehow?" "It's extremely unlikely," the administrator replied, his professional tone softened with what might have been sympathy. "The digitization process was thorough, with multiple quality checks. If you were born at Memphis General during that period, there would be a record. We've even kept the original paper records in storage as backup." "I see." Clarissa's voice sounded hollow, disconnected from the turmoil churning inside her. "Was there anything else I could help you with today?" "No. Thank you for checking." She ended the call before he could respond, her finger jabbing at the screen with unnecessary force. The car interior fell silent except for Annie's soft babbling and the persistent tick of the hazard lights Clarissa hadn't realized she'd activated. She stared straight ahead, not seeing the parking lot, the county records building, or the people moving between them. Instead, she saw her mother's face when she'd handed over the birth certificate—the forced casualness, the way her eyes had never quite met Clarissa's. She saw the empty spaces on the walls where baby pictures should have been. She saw Jessica's face in that high school hallway years ago, a mirror image staring back at her with identical blue eyes and the same crescent-shaped birthmark behind her ear. Slowly, Clarissa turned to look at Annie in the rear-view mirror. Her daughter had settled, fascinated by the toy dangling from the handle of her car seat. Those same blue eyes. That same wavy hair was beginning to sprout on her tiny head. And on the left side, behind her ear, the same crescent birthmark—only on the opposite side from Clarissa's own. "We deserve to know," she whispered, meeting her reflection's gaze in the mirror. The face that looked back at her was no longer confused or desperate but hardened with resolve. "No more lies. No more running." She started the engine properly this time, her hands steady as she shifted into drive. She knew where she needed to go. LaToya had spent twenty-three years constructing an elaborate fiction, six of those years literally running from the truth. But that ended today. For Annie's sake. For her own sake. And perhaps even for Jessica's. As she pulled out of the parking lot, Clarissa remembered the first time she'd seen Jessica in that high school hallway. The shock of recognition had rippled through her body like an electrical current, setting off alarms she'd been too young to understand fully. Now those same alarms blared with new urgency and purpose. Whatever the truth was—however painful or complicated—she would face it head-on. She checked Annie once more in the rear-view mirror, drawing strength from her daughter's innocent gaze, then turned the car toward her parents’ house.
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