Showing posts with label Barbara Nickless. Show all posts
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Monday, October 20, 2025

My First Time Reading A Fantastic Writer, Barbara Nickless, Author of At First Light, Which Became A Personal Favorite!

He was close. He could sense the answer buried somewhere in everything he’d learned and studied since he’d stood next to Talfour’s body and considered the eeriness of death amid the water and reeds and mist. What was it in the human heart that—over the centuries—continually linked the sacred and the violent? The same part that worshipped gods as superior beings but also believed that honoring them required the blood sacrifice of animals and people. At some point in the killer’s life, violence and sacrifice had become so intertwined in the killer’s mind that they could no longer be unwoven. Once again, Evan opened Heaney’s translation of Beowulf. Fate goes ever as it must. After a moment, he returned the book to the stack. If he was playing the role of the hunter, it was a good thing no one was waiting dinner on him. He stood. He needed to give his brain time to chew on things. Plus, it was way past time for him to feed Ginny. He called Addie on the landline and left a message expressing his concerns...then he casually mentioned that he was heading home. When she learned he’d violated her wishes, she’d be livid. But he’d find a way to make it up to her. Maybe with tickets to Hamilton... Next, he dialed the campus police and let them know he was ready to head out. They agreed to meet him near the main doors. He tucked the gun in his coat pocket, picked up his satchel, then flipped off the desk lamp and made his way to the door through the semidarkness, his path lit by the university lights shining through the windows. He lifted his coat from the hook and opened the door. In the hall—hands clenched, breathing hard—stood Tommy Snow...



He opened his journal to the drawing he’d done of Talfour’s body, the corpse set like a broken jewel amid the mud and reeds. Immediately in front of him, he squared a foolscap writing pad—he liked the additional room offered by the larger pages—and next to it, a fountain pen. He stretched, turned his neck from side to side to work out the kinks, and frowned down at the table. The most important thing to do whenever he was attempting to form a picture out of a scattering of puzzle pieces was to create some mental space between himself and the mystery. Distance was the key to finding the outside limits of the puzzle—the corners and sides, so to speak. Distance quieted the chatter of his brain and allowed the more intuitive thoughts to surface. He had several strategies for distracting his monkey mind when he was trying to dive deep on a problem. The wooden puzzles he was so fond of. Walking the grounds around the house. Taking Ginny out to fly. And baking sweet and savory pastries; he was particularly fond of some of the baking shows from his native Britain. 

Tonight, he decided that music would be his technique of choice. He turned on the sound system and selected the chant for the dead sung during the requiem mass, “In Paradisum.” The choral voices soothed both him and Ginny and felt right for the work at hand. He nodded down at the documents laid out on the table. “And so we begin.” He pulled over a chair of a comfortable height and eased into it. He then picked up the pen and bent over the foolscap, touching ink to paper. A small dot appeared. His earlier unease vanished like a chill dropping away from his skin, leaving only a residual disquiet from the two deaths. 

And even that disappeared as he began to work. Solving a puzzle of any form was a balm to heart and soul. Every enigma had an answer, every riddle a response. It remained only to find the correct key to set the universe to rights. He wrote out the runes left by the killer, getting the feel for their shapes. The lines and branches, the crosses and arcs. Although his medium was different—paper and pen versus wood and bone and a sharp-bladed tool—he could easily imagine the killer’s satisfaction as the characters took shape beneath his hand, unspooling the killer’s story. Then, as Rhinehart had done, he transliterated the runic alphabet into the Latin one. Here, he referred to the chart he’d made that morning. His transliteration was very close to Rhinehart’s. So despite the man’s refusal to consider other aspects of the crime scene, the man at least knew his runes. Finished with the first task, Evan sat back in his chair, sipped the Old-Fashioned, and watched as lamplight played along the cut crystal. 

Now for the difficult part. Picking out the actual meaning from the string of characters. “I’ll be disappointed in you,” he said to the air, addressing the killer as if the man stood before him. “Very disappointed indeed if most of what you’ve given us is the kind of nonsense Rhinehart proposed.” He set down the glass and began, again, to write. He scratched things out, circled around, rewrote the words, rewrote entire lines. At one point, he murmured, “It is a numbering system,” as he scratched out and reordered some of the lines. The poet had not only used boustrophedon so that the lines had to be read in alternating directions but had also reordered his lines by moving every third line down, presumably to make the decipherment more difficult. Now and again, Evan consulted his phone to check a word or definition on the internet. Half an hour later, he laid down the pen and leaned back to survey his work. “It’s only a guess at the moment,” he said again to the lurking shadows, which lay deep enough along the walls to harbor a murderer. “I’ve no doubt made mistakes. But still, your poem speaks its own strange language.” Ginny twitched her head left, then right, as if searching the room for another human. “Your poem is also difficult,” Evan continued. “There are words and lines I don’t yet understand. You are a trickster. Exactly like any Old English poet worth his weight. But”—he picked up his glass and raised it in a mock salute—“what you gave us isn’t gibberish.” 

He turned down the requiem mass until it was only a whisper in the background and tapped a button on his small audio recorder. He read the lines aloud. First the Desser runes and then Talfour’s. 2 Thus from my bothy I came homeland’s ward for cattle of riding 3 to sacrifice the innocent at night she takes back her sons and daughters 4 who rived and tholed and peeled her flesh like ripe fruit 9 blessing giver my blood-feud stillbirths your further crimes 10 Listen up! Mighty men I undo and unto earth I send 11 Their water weighted corses. I am a dam-ned scop 12 A death driven mere plague, the brume that binds up evil. 13 A weary warrior wailing with wyrded wergild, 14 A slayer of the bone halls breaking Fjorgyn. 15 You know why! Over the sun swimmer home I came 16 For mine! Mine mine gone. Bowel buried, busted by big bosses 17 That war crime, sword shaker, heart of my bawn entombed. 18 Making me bodulfr war wolf and lendreg and ageclaa, all, bearing the. 19 What of this bone cage? This skin sinner is ox of riding. 20 By Skollfud’s light I laid him low. Wight is he and soon wight. 21 In warding I reward. Into his mouth of hearing I poured my mead. 22 Tell me! By Mani’s lait I laid it out. Prick me this. But 23 His honey maker held still, so I held tight, strong as nnn men. 24 He felt the weight of his wight, knew wyrd is wicked. 25 With his mirror I did mirror mere to mere 26 His thole was thus that he thanked the hel guard 27 When wailing the word weaver arrived a bletsian. The word bletsian died away, swallowed by the chant for the dead. The drapes stirred as the heater kicked on. Outside, the trees shook their needled robes. “Now, to some of the more difficult phrases,” 

Evan said, still recording so that the police would have access to his thought process if needed. “Skollfud’s light, for example. By Skollfud’s light I laid him low. Not, as Rhinehart suggested, by skull food lait. Skoll is the name of the wolf in Viking poetry who will one day devour the sun goddess. So perhaps the killer named the sun Skoll’s food. And since we know Talfour was placed by the river just before dawn, let’s assume the killer meant morning’s light, not daylight or evening.” He could hear Addie pushing back, questioning him. Why didn’t he just write morning, then, if that’s what he meant? she’d ask. Because, he’d answer. Old English poets loved riddles. They performed tricks with their words. Note how cleverly the killer took something generally considered positive—a sunrise—and turned it into a violent metaphor of a wolf devouring a goddess. 

A poet? Addie would ask. Indeed. Make no mistake . . . our killer is a poet. Perhaps an indifferent one. But a poet nonetheless. He circled back to line eighteen, with its anagrams. Almost immediately, he cried, “Yes!” Ginny fluttered awake. Annoyed at his outburst, she shook her wings. Now on his feet, Evan made his way to the bookcase still carrying the recorder. “But the Old English style of this poem confirms my suspicions. Lendreg is most definitely an anagram for the monster Grendel.” He gazed at the shelf that held his books of medieval poetry. “For any listeners unfamiliar with Beowulf, it’s the tale of a Viking hero who slays a terrible monster named Grendel. Later, Beowulf kills Grendel’s mother, the second monster of the saga. And at the very end of the story, he slaughters a dragon and is himself mortally wounded. Heroic and tragic, all at once.” Ginny lifted a foot, studied the razor-sharp talons like a woman admiring her pedicure. “Important for our purposes, Grendel is an aglaeca, a word that also appears in the killer’s poem. It means monster. But ironically, the word is related to the later Middle English word egleche, which means brave and warlike. A contradiction that is, perhaps, indicative of our killer’s mindset.” Evan stopped recording and raised his gaze to the windows, vaguely aware of the mist twining through the hedges in the knot garden and banking against the dormant lavender. Had he heard something? But it was only the chant for the dead, looping through a second time. Once again, he tapped the “Record” button. “Moreover, we have the word bodulfr. This word isn’t an anagram. Bodulfr is the Icelandic word for war wolf. In the interest of saving time, I’ll skip over the etymological variants that lead us from boldulfr to Beowulf. You’ll have to trust me on that linguistic point. The important thing we need to know is that the killer is telling us he is both monster and monster slayer.” He paused. “What are we to make of that?” 

Ginny failed to look impressed by Evan’s philological prowess. And Evan, moving from the windows to the bookcases, failed to find his copies of Beowulf. He owned translations from Heaney, Tolkien, and Liuzza. All of them were gone. “God’s bones,” Evan said. “I must have loaned them out.” Although he had no recollection of doing so. Not that it was uncommon for him to forget. As much as he loved his books, he was often careless with them, relying on those who borrowed a title to be trustworthy about returning it. As he scanned the nearby shelves, an old medieval curse rang in his head. 

Steal not this Book my honest friend For fear the gallows be your end For when you die the Lord will say Where is the book you stole away.

~~~

This was one of the most fascinating, multi-genre books I've ever read. You will read about ancient mythology during the age of Vikings, Odin et.al. It is brilliantly done as the history is explored from the past to merge with the present... I've been talking about seeing connections more and more and this book brought several to my mind... I think it is helpful to work to understand what is happening in our nation at this time...

There were men from Q-Anon dressed in costume, men embracing the Nazis, while others came in groups of men who had formed groups to form militias, for whatever reasons... The one thing we do know that they had joined a cult led by one man who invited their attendance: "It will be wild..."

In this book, in Chicago where the book is set, there now were those who had looked much further back into history, to the age of Vikings... Those who banned together to bring back the glory of white supremacy and, again, violence as their main objective. 

But another connection came to mind as well. Nickless in her extensive reading and research for this fantastic novel, learned that there were/are no actual historical records that were written during that time... It was only later that individuals began to do research of whatever they were able to pull together and thus a sort of cult activity was begun, making heroes out of those individuals who were called Vikings...

I've been reading a nonfiction book written by Mary Magdalene. Her book had been either lost or hidden which, undoubtedly, would have forced questions of the Bible itself... This book enforced my present ruminations about the Old Testament in particular and in relation to the "full story" in the present New Testament. This is not meant to be critical. It is merely an observation and a gaining of insight such as through The First Light that people routinely hone in on what you might call the Strong Men of history and begin to emulate or at least attempt to follow somebody that they admire--forming a cult of sorts.

There was even a place for those who followed the Viking ways... The Ragnarök ax-throwing establishment owned and managed, by a man named Sten Elger.

Yes, instead of a bowling alley, Sten had created a
shorter alley and had axes to throw... Lots of fun and drinking... But readers will also meet a number of those who will be major or minor characters that have caught the attention of the police...

Because a murder had occurred... And the detective who caught the case, once she saw the body, immediately called her best friend, who is the main character of this trilogy (I've already purchased the other two books--that's how much this book impressed me).

Excerpt from The Narratives of Serial Killers Semiotician: Evan Wilding, PhD, SSA, IASS Proceedings of the International Conference on Semiotics Every murderer creates his own story. This story may be simple or elaborate, coherent or deeply fragmented. Serial murderers often leave signs and symbols at the crime scene—messages for the police to decipher. Notes, maps, images. The posing of the body, a unique modus operandi. The killer is the riddler extraordinaire, and his narrative—the story he wishes to tell—is the enigma he presents to the detective. Someone—perhaps Nietzsche—once said that those seen dancing were thought insane by those who could not hear the music. Our job is to find the killer’s music.


"Ragnarök. In reference to the Viking apocalypse, I presume."


Evan Wilding, PhD, SSA, IASS, was added to the team of investigators working on the first murder, and by the time, it was being formed, a second murder had occurred. Both extremely ritualistic... One of the key points was that both had been killed 3 different ways. And, bones with runes written on them were found among the other extremely defined scene where the bodies were found. He was the main individual doing the historical research based upon what had been found at the scenes which went well beyond the rune symbols...

Addie had a new boss who was clearly adverse to working with a female detective, especially in the lead role, so he promptly ignored the fact that she had already hired an expert and brought in another who was an expert on runes. I appreciated the author noting that she had simplified for her book the extremely exact methodology which was needed to transcribe runes to
the English language. It was covered several times, and I still could not imagine actually being able to do what the experts were doing. Still the addition of another expert automatically increased the tension for the team members since the second man added was not aware of the first; and, when he began to be challenged by Evan, it got even more tense.



It was the Runologist who brought to mind another connection to today's world when he attempted to make the case that it was more than likely that the meaning of the runes was connected to Germany and Hitler's use during his leadership.  It was clear that Evan had the broader background and, in fact, having his involvement actually led to what was to occur. Even if Evan was the individual who was narrowing down just who the actual killer was, the climax proved him and the readers to be wrong--or at least I was! LOL

A final note about the characters. Both Evan and Addie were exceptionally well-developed, although I decided not to include personal descriptions and interactions between these two friends. I look forward to seeing them again--they should prove to keep the action moving in the next two books... More than likely, characters will changed based upon the complexity of the crimes. The back history on Vikings, correlated with those who have chosen to band together as wannabes, proved to result in one of the most complex, intense, and informative novels I can remember reading... Kudos to the author!

Most of you may expect that I will include discussions about comparisons between today's chaos in the nation. Authors should feel free to delete these portions if they want to use my review in other places. Or copy the one on Amazon...

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Friday, March 29, 2019

AMBUSH - Next in Series by Barbara Nickless - Produces WOW Effect!

The call came late on an August evening while Jeremy Kane was upstairs, rocking his infant daughter. When the phone buzzed, Kane shifted Megan in his arms and pulled his cell from his pocket. An out-of-state number he’d never seen. He pressed a button and silenced the call. 
Megan’s breath hitched as if she would fuss, and Kane rubbed her back. She swallowed her cry and nestled into his shoulder, her tiny hand a petal against his throat. His bum leg ached. Closing his eyes, he shifted his weight. He inhaled the baby’s clean, sweet scent and listened to his older daughter singing softly in the next room. At moments like these, the war and its aftershocks seemed very far away. 
Still, Kane knew there were some things you couldn’t fix. No matter how much help you had. No matter what interventions people ran on your behalf. No matter how hard you tried.
Some things stayed broken. A bum leg. A bad memory. But he believed in work-arounds. If you had the sense God gave a goat, you learned to trim back, cut down, reroute. You accepted that no plan came with guarantees, and when life blocked one lane, you found another. He had his family. He mostly had his health. And he had a good job as a security officer for Denver’s Regional Transportation District—the RTD. 
The gig wasn’t the life he’d dreamed of before the war. It wasn’t medical school. It wasn’t a bright, sunny office and a steady stream of patients and a world that admired a man’s intelligence and awarded him money and accolades for his dedication. 
But there were compensations. Like these times with his girls. The phone buzzed again. Same number. A cold thread wriggled its way into Kane’s thoughts. Lester Crowe. For Crowe, the war was always right there. In his face or on his back. In his dreams, and always on his mind. When things got too dark, he would call Kane from someone’s cell or use the phone in whatever dive bar he found himself in when the shakes hit. Kane answered with a soft hello. “Someone’s been following me,” Crowe said without preamble. “Trying to smoke my ass.”
An icy fear knifed into Kane’s neck, right at the base of his skull. He kept his voice soft. “Hey, Crowe, you okay?” 
“I was until some fancy suit started following me. Watching me eat my food and scratch my ass. Watching me every time I take a shit, I swear. Not safe anywhere. It’s fucking Iraq all over again.” 
A week ago, Kane would have tried to talk Crowe down from whatever mental ledge his war buddy had crawled out on. But that was before Kane began digging into the past. Before he learned just how wrong things had gone in Iraq. And how it had spilled out over here. Maybe someone had noticed his online research. The drive-bys and photos. Maybe he’d endangered his entire fireteam. 
“Crowe—” Megan woke with a mewling cry. Kane stood and jounced her in his arm. He walked to the window, taking a sentry’s position above the quiet street. “What are you talking about?” 
“Some nutso shit, man.” Kane caught the rumble of a truck through the line. A horn honked. Then Crowe said, “It’s like we’re the heroes in a fucked-up movie. And Iraq is the monster that won’t stay dead.” 
“Where are you? I’ll come and get you. Doesn’t matter where you are.” 
“I’m calling from a pay phone. Only way that’s secure. An hour from now I’ll be in another state. You hang with your family, take care of your own. Stay on watch and be careful. These guys are serious trouble. They’re probably listening in right now.” 
Kane did not want to go down the path his friend had taken. “Crowe, c’mon. You been smoking something?”
“I’m telling you. It’s Iraq, back with a mouthful of teeth. We should never have done what we did. It was wrong, man. It was so wrong.” 
Kane swallowed down the panic and reminded himself this was, after all, Crowe. Unstable in the best of times. Crowe had gone radio silent right after he returned to the States. And a man didn’t disappear from his Marine brethren unless there was something very wrong with what was bouncing around between his ears. But still. Kane considered what he’d learned this last week. Covert deals, illegal weapons, faked reports. There were enough pieces missing that he couldn’t yet make out the overall image. But what he could see made him think that what Crowe had going on was less PTSD than self-preservation. “You been to see anyone, Crowe? You know, just to talk. You sound—” “Paranoid?” Crowe snorted. “Don’t give me that bullshit. These dudes will hand everyone on our team their asses and make us thank them for the pleasure. It’s something to do with that Iraqi kid whose mom got killed. He’s in the middle of this clusterfuck.” 
This was a sucker punch. “Malik?” 
“He saw something over there. Those weapons. Remember that?” The panic clawed free and tried to pull Kane down. Megan began to fuss. He walked her back and forth across the room, struggling to pull up an image of the small boy who’d been adopted by the Marines after his mother’s murder. “You think they’re after you because of—” He stopped himself, abruptly aware that if Crowe’s fear was grounded in reality, someone really might be listening. “Because of that?” he finished weakly. 
“Only thing I can think of. Look, I gotta go. Stay on watch, brother. Remember what we used to say? Just ’cause you’re paranoid don’t mean they’re not out to get you.” Crowe disconnected. 
Kane’s thoughts flew in a hundred different directions. No question, Crowe was crazy. He saw things no one else did. He babbled on about conspiracy theories and space aliens. He’d never learned to rest his head anywhere for more than a night or two. Then again, given what Kane had learned, maybe right now Lester Crowe was the sanest man on the team...

AMBUSH
Sydney Parnell Series


By Barbara Nickless

I was committed to this series as soon as I met and was mesmerized by the lead character, Sydney Parnell. There's not another female main character like her! First, she was a Marine...and proves to be all that everybody says Marines are. Second, she volunteered to care for the dead during her service--and ghosts are with her constantly, especially for those she'd had to kill in battle...


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Now she is a cop with the railroads. In this book, however, we are taken back to that time during the war when it all had started. It was bad; it was wrong. Most said. What Sydney remembered most was that she had cared for the boy of a mother who had been killed that day. And then she'd been forced to leave him. She had never been able to forget, or forgive herself, for that. And, now, she'd learned where he might be. She left for Mexico immediately, alone, and on the hunt.

But, while there, she learns that her friend and co-worker, Jeremy Kane, was murdered. Kane had also been a part one of the Marines who had responded to orders and believed they were doing what was right for America... Was there somebody working to eliminate that entire team? It wasn't a new idea. She even called the individual, Alpha, to pinpoint exactly who had authorized that mission... And she was always on alert...

The local assigned investigator for the case was thankful to have Sydney offer to help. It appeared that Kane had been killed by a homeless man and since Sydney did a lot of interaction with the homeless in the area, she was surprised that she had never seen the man before... But, almost immediately after studying the crime scene photos and videos, she was certain that the man had not been a homeless man, but had dressed as one as a disguise...which meant, he would have totally changed his appearance, and could be anywhere now.

I appreciated the twist when Sydney finds evidence that Kane had collected and used it to work the case. Sydney's lover, a homicide cop, Cohen was involved to some extent, and they discussed everything that happened. Until he realized that she should have already told him much earlier, what she was now sharing. And it was going to get tougher for them before this all ended...
Since Cohen and I had been together, I’d wanted to make our relationship normal. Create a bond that wasn’t hobbled by my past. A “how was your day at the office, dear?” kind of relationship. 
But he was right. I was way too skittish to walk all the way into the room. “I’m sorry,” I said. 
“It’s not what you did in Iraq. As a cop, I know we’re all just trying to do our best. And I know that sometimes it’s impossible in the moment to perfectly draw that line between right and wrong. I get that.” 
My pulse throbbed in my temple. “What, then?”
“It’s how you handled it with me. You’ve buried yourself so far behind your walls that even when both our lives were in danger, you wouldn’t let me in. Wouldn’t tell me what was going on. And now . . . now I don’t know if I can trust you to have my back.” 
A needle slid into my heart. “I thought I could handle it on my own.” 
“That’s exactly the problem. You think you have to handle everything by yourself. You should have included me, Sydney. Dammit.” He turned to face me. Anger and pain and hurt swam in his eyes, eddies in a dark current. His entire body slumped, as if gravity had finally gotten a grip on him. 
“Can you try not to die while I’m gone?” 
My eyes filled. “Marines are hard to kill.”
~~~


On the other hand, outside of her personal life, one of the points that makes Sydney so special, is that the author has created her so that Sydney is well-respected, liked, and trusted. so that, even in Mexico, she was able to make contacts that would help in any way needed... 

And whenever there is danger or facing enemies in order to do what is right, Sydney will be the first, or among those that move in for the battle. What happens in Mexico brings both terrible deaths, as well as a renewal of peace of mind. But no event there could top the major surprise that occurs when Sydney follows the tracks discovered by Kane... as well as responding to the kidnapping of her cop lover... (only one hint for those who've been reading the series.)



Nickless writes exciting books--no doubt about it! They are edgy, where her main characters take risks and somehow make it through. Brave heroes are the central point, but it is also pointed out that, really, those in the Marines have seen things that not even homicide cops have seen--and many still live with all that has gone down during their service. Nickless presents a reality that we all know that...nobody...should have to go through. Yet some are called to protect and serve.

But when it's never over for some of them...those Marines get mad...they get angry that, now, after all those years, what they were told to do is no longer an acceptable action to be forgotten. No, because, those that made those things happen don't want to pay. They want to continue the money-making schemes that criminals are always looking for...

This is edge-of-the scene action in two different settings with different characters, but all surrounding what one brave boy, Malik, did while he watched his mother be murdered...he recorded it...

In order to get justice for the loss of his mother...

Fortunately, with books we don't have to make comparisons between which book to choose, most of the time. But, I would say that the author has outdone herself on this one...WOW Effect for me! Unique story, unique situations, unique main characters. Can't get any better! I can't wait until the next book comes! Highly recommended.


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Barbara Nickless promised her mother she'd be a novelist when she grew up. What could be safer than sitting at a desk all day? But an English degree and a sense of adventure took her down other paths--technical writer, raptor rehabilitator, astronomy instructor, sword fighter, piano teacher and journalist. Now an award-winning author, she spends her free time snowshoeing, caving and hiking the Colorado Rockies. Connect with her at www.barbaranickless.com.









Friday, September 21, 2018

Barbara Nickless - Dead Stop, Second in New Sydney Parnell Fantastic Series! Personal Favorite for Book and Character!



Continuing on from the audio...excerpt...


Her father loved the trains. That’s where he worked now that he wasn’t a soldier anymore, writing a book about the railroads. 
But the sound of the whistle always opened up something in Lucy that was far away and sad. A silver thread of lightning shot down from the sky. Lucy shivered. Her dad paused in his reading. “The train?” 
“No,” she said, wanting to be brave. “And not the lightning, neither.” She sat on the shiver, squeezed it until it went away. Then she lifted her head and pointed toward the window. “Could we go there?” 
Her father followed her gaze. “Outside? Sure, after dinner. We can go for a walk once the storm has passed.” 
She shook her head. “No. Look. See us in the window?” Her dad sat up, shifting her on his lap, and squinted toward the glass. 
“I do, Lucy.” 
“And you see the trees, too?”
 “I do,” he answered gravely.
He always took her ideas seriously. But she could feel his smile. “It’s a magic place,” she said. “An in-between place. Like the wardrobe.” 
“What would we do there in the window, Lucy Goose?” 
At the use of her nickname, she looked into his face. Her father hadn’t called her Lucy Goose since she started kindergarten. Now she was a big third grader. “We’d find things,” she said. “Special things. Like Lucy did in Narnia.”
“I’d like that, Lucy Goose.” She looked back down, hugged Bobo. 
“Does Mommy have to go?” 
“Only for a few days.” He tilted her chin up. “What’s bothering you?” But Lucy shook her head. She was always seeing things. That’s what her teachers said. “I’m not afraid.” ...
In the midst of all this, the doorbell rang. “One of you kids get that,” her mother said. But now the boys were arguing over who had knocked over the pitcher. Lucy stood and walked out of the kitchen toward the hall. As she rounded the corner, the light from the kitchen fell away and the front door emerged from the darkness. Through the window next to the door, evening light fell soft. The storm was gone, and a single star shone in the sky. Far away, another train blew its whistle. Lucy paused in the hall, one hand pressed flat against the cool texture of the wall, one foot lifted as if afraid to touch down. The doorbell rang again.
“Lucy!” called her mom. “It’s Carla. She needs to borrow the mixer. Can you let her in?” 
The hallway grew longer. Darker. The door loomed, its brass handle gleaming in the dying light. Lucy glanced back into the library where her book and Bobo lay in the chair. Whoever had rung the bell began to knock. “It’s like the wardrobe,” Lucy whispered. “Don’t be afraid. It’s Aslan waiting.” Or the white witch, said a voice from somewhere. Lucy’s hand found the door handle. Don’t open it, said the same voice...
~~~

But She did...And before long all of her family was attacked, and she was kidnapped. Her father was taken to the hospital in critical condition; the rest of the family were dead...



Every chance you get, remember: hang on to the living.  
Don’t take up with the dead. 
—Sydney Parnell. Personal journal.



Sydney Parnell seems to have been surrounded by death since she was young. After her father had left her and her mother, her mother was sent to prison for murdering a man...that was the first of the dead...

Sydney was always afraid, but she had taught herself not to be and when she had decided to join the Marines, she signed up for Mortuary Affairs. Her willingness to take on an extremely hard environment in which to serve her country was appreciated by her C/O. But he got more than he ever could have wished for, given Sydney's talent for remembering and recording all the needed details that came with the job...

But she had also taken on the dead in a personal way, and in her mind, she would look at every body and put them back together and then, almost as a blessing, she accepted them into her heart's memory. Now years later, in her personal journal, she would caution to hang on to the living instead...But it was too late for her... Now the dead surrounded her at various places and times. And when she became a cop and killed the enemies, they also followed her, as if waiting, waiting to get back at her for their deaths...

Sydney is not only extremely intelligent, which we discover as she is able to quickly pick up clues and/or add to the picture from others working a case, so that she normally winds up being the one who solves the case. Of course, part of the reason is that, she is also extremely tenacious and when others call it a day, she keeps on thinking, and, once the puzzle is solved, she proceeds out as a loner, not willing to stop until the solution is found...

In this book, an entire family has been attacked at home, but the young girl, Lucy was taken... All the reasons had to be considered--for a ransom, for later torture and sexual abuse, or sold...There were so many reasons that Lucy had to be found as quickly as possible!

Sydney was hit hard when she was called into the case...She already carried a picture of a young boy that she had met during the war and hoped to bring home, only to have him disappear... She was always hunting for him... Now, with Lucy, her picture also carried in her pocket, she vowed to herself that she would not let this child also disappear! Even if she had to find Lucy herself!

Sydney has moved in with her lover, a cop she worked with on cases, beginning in the first book. He has already vowed his love to her, but Sydney, in my opinion, has lost the understanding of love at this point. Just this one love interest is sufficient to bring attention to the book as we hope and pray that this character, sitting in for many with PTSD, is able to find her way back and trust enough to be able to fall in love...

I'm not sure whether this book, with so much violence would be considered in the Christian genre. But I will say that our main character spends a lot of time talking with, negotiating, or being mad at God as she struggles with all that has been placed on her...from the dead...and the living. To me, this story is more the reality of today's world than those books without violence. I am pleased that Nickless has successfully, in my opinion, combined faith in God along with those who constantly fight evil... The series is timely from that perspective... and I've already pre-ordered the next, even if I have to wait 'til next year--I don't want to not continue the series! Love and highly recommend to thriller fans and more!


Every person’s life is a struggle against a world filled with resistance. That resistance may defeat us or warp us or crush us. 
But sometimes, we find a strength we didn’t know we had. And with that newly recognized strength, we move past the hard times. And we become a little stronger for the next round. 
—Sydney Parnell. Personal journal.


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Monday, September 17, 2018

Outstanding Debut Series by Barbara Nickless Begins With Blood on the Tracks! With a New Amazing Lead!



Awards: The Colorado Book Award, presented by Colorado Humanities & the Center for the Book; the Daphne du Maurier Award of Excellence for mainstream mystery; the Colorado Authors’ League Writing Award for genre fiction. A Suspense Magazine Best Book of 2016.



Barbara Nickless wanted to write a series about a railroad police officer...I wanted to know more about what that entailed...Check it out if interested...








Our job, the duty of the Marines of Mortuary Affairs, was to go in after the fact. Once the grunts and the gunners and the insurgents had done their job or died trying, we went in to pick up the HR—the human remains. We cleaned up after the IEDs and the armor-piercing ammo and the 81-millimeter mortar rounds. We used gloves and tarps and scrapers. Sometimes just our hands, scooping up flesh and pouring it into body bags that sloshed as we carried them to the reefer. 
—Corporal Sydney Rose Parnell. Denver Post. January 13, 2010.
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The camp was silent as we approached, everyone still rolled in their blankets, sleeping off the night’s drunk or trying to find the last slender shred of warmth. The fire in the middle of the camp had gone to ashes. I stopped outside Trash Can’s tarp roof and looked at the army blanket he’d hung over a low branch and duct-taped to the tarp for privacy. “What are you doing back, Trash Can?” 
A rustle from the other side of the blanket and a string of curses. “You know I’m supposed to roust you guys,” I went on. “Why you still here? You got a hate on me?”
“Agent Parnell,” Trash Can said, relief in his voice.
“Your pancakes are getting cold.” 
The camp stirred to life, tent flaps lifting as worn, ragged forms emerged, blinking in the light and scuffing toward me across the dirt and weeds like extras in a zombie movie. I set the bags on the picnic table and laid out Styrofoam plates and plastic forks. The other police—those who knew about my weekly visits, anyway, Nik and the captain—thought I was crazy. But I had taken on debt in the war and had very little coin with which to pay it back. 
Most everyone nodded in my direction, and all of them gave Clyde a respectful clearance. Everyone seemed twitchy today, eating fast and keeping their heads up. I saw Melody Weber, thought shit, and searched for her daughter, found the eight-year-old huddled under a blanket nearby. Melody had a three-inch cut across her chin. I settled on a tree stump and waited. When Melody finished eating, I waved her over and studied the cut with a clinical eye. “Again?” I asked. 
She shrugged, her plump shoulders shivering under a dirty red sweatshirt. She held out her fingers toward Clyde, who sniffed them and allowed her to scratch behind his ears. Clyde didn’t care for strangers, but he’d gotten used to our weekly visit to the camps, and he tolerated the touch of Melody and a few others. 
“The world does enough to you without you staying with him,” I said. “What about Liz?”
 “He wouldn’t never hurt her.” Melody stared me down, defiant. “He loves that girl like she was his own.” 
“She’ll grow up thinking it’s normal for a man to beat the shit out of his girlfriend. You want that for her?”
“I teach her better than that. She knows.” She was shivering hard enough her teeth chattered. “Where’s your coat?” I asked. “I got it. Don’t worry. I didn’t lose it.” 
“Can’t keep you warm, you don’t wear it.” 
She glared, daring me to question her. “It’s in the tent. Liz got cold.” I held my sigh. “I’m going to call a friend at Human Services. She’ll pick you up, take both of you to the women’s shelter.” 
“It’s the ones who love us, hurt us the most, you know.” 
“What he does to you isn’t love.” 
Melody shrugged. “You don’t know everything.” 
“Dammit, Melody, you aren’t helpless.” 
“Easy for you to say, being a cop and all.” She dug a wad of fast-food napkins out of her jeans pocket and blew her nose. “What do you know about being trapped someplace and you can’t get out?” 
I flashed to our base in Iraq—the mortars, the gunfire. “Not much, I guess.” After I’d phoned and made arrangements with my contact at Human Services, I gestured for Melody to sit on the stump. “You want me to fix up that cut?” I asked. 
She nodded. “Wait here.” Clyde followed me to the Explorer. 
As I came up the hill, I saw a short, skinny man standing near my truck, leaning over the hood and peering through the glass. “Help you with something?” I asked. He startled and glanced my way. Blue eyes gleamed within the shadow of his hoodie amid a tracing of tattoos. Chronologically, he was a teenager, just getting started down the road of his life. But the flat expression in those blue eyes was miles older. He must have hit some pretty deep ruts already. He flipped me the bird. “There’s food down at the table if you’re hungry,” I told him. “But I need you to move away from the car. Dog’s pretty possessive.” His gaze flicked to Clyde. 
Wordlessly, he spun on his heel and headed toward the road. I watched him until he was well away before unlocking the truck. Hard world sometimes, turning kids into jerks before they had time to do the job themselves. Back at the camp with my first aid kit, I knelt on the frozen ground and donned a pair of latex gloves. Everyone had finished eating and most were heading out, moving fast and with glances all around. “It just me, or is everyone skittish today?” I asked. 
“Some, maybe.” Melody gathered her dishwater-blond hair in a fist and pulled it back while I worked. Her daughter watched blankly from the picnic table. Usually the little girl was all over Clyde, but today she had drawn into herself, knees pulled to her chest, chin tucked, a tight ball of heartbreak. I poured hydrogen peroxide onto a cotton ball.
 “What’s got everyone spooked?”
“The Burned Man’s back,” she said. 
“He here now?” 
“Not so’s I know. Saw him early this morning when the train come through, but he didn’t stay.” 
The Burned Man. A former Marine I’d seen once before. Never got a chance to talk to him. When I saw him, I thought, Poor bastard. I’d seen enough of his kind of injuries to wonder if he would have been better off dying. Then again, I’d spent enough sleepless nights with the dead to be sure I had no right to ask.
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Parnell had begun her usual work day, heading to the hobo camp that sat near the tracks... She'd brought breakfast, and looked around to see if anybody needed medical help or just let them know that pancakes were getting cold... That day, as she worked with a mother and daughter, to call in for a location where they could stay, having been beaten by her lover the previous night. No, helping the homeless was not part of her job, but Parnell carried a big guilt for all that she'd seen and done while a Marine. She needed to pay back somehow...

It was from Melody that she learned that the Burned Man was back. She had seen him but had never talked to him, but learned that he had endured one surgery after another with little change to bring his face back. And then he'd walked out, knowing it was an impossible task. And they had given him an dishonorable discharge because he'd walked out, gone AWOL, for not wanting to endure further, futile pain... Crazy world...

The Burn Man had come back because he'd received a call from the woman he had loved before being in the service. He had been unable to accept that she had still loved him. But she had called him and asked him to come back, that she missed and loved him, no matter what. That was all he needed and he had set off for home...

Only to arrive at her home and find her dead...horribly murdered. His flashbacks started immediately, blood, body parts...he'd lost memory of what he was doing but finally had fled, rushed back to the camp, and took to the tracks for the next train out...

Eve Dallas, the main character in J.D. Robb's In Death series has been my top favorite female character for years...but I think Sydney Rose Parnell may be a strong contender or maybe even a replacement for that honor, for me...

She's is quite simply, unbelievable. She's not gotten over her childhood trauma as Eve has, but Parnell has been fighting the world ever since her father left, and her mother finally went to jail for murder. Becoming a Marine was a courageous step, but then she took on the job of caring for the dead as a member of Mortuary Affairs! The thing is, most of the dead stayed around afterwards...

Automatically, because cleaning up the dead had been my job for fourteen months, I made her beautiful once more. In my mind, I closed her wounds, washed away her blood. I shampooed her hair and combed it, arranged her slashed hands upon her breast. Then I did what no mortician could. I rebuilt her shattered face and restored the flush to her cheeks, the pulse to her throat. I made her smile. In my mind, I made her whole. “I’ll hold you here,” I whispered, touching my hand to my heart. It was what I said to all the dead...

At this point, readers do not know whether the ghosts stay because she makes them whole again, make them a part of her memories, or whether they really are ghosts that have not moved on...But what we do discover is that, often, when she feels totally alone and on the hunt, it is "Sir," her Marine leader, who comes to spark the energy needed to go on...

Part of Parnell's past includes having her lover killed. And, with his death, because he had been a K9 handler, she was able to claim Clyde, his partner, who now worked as her partner as a Special Agent for the RailRoad. They are so wonderfully paired that, once you see them together, you cannot even think of Parnell without including Clyde in your thoughts...

And so it was, that once the body had been found, Parnell and Clyde became part of the team who would be working to find who had so viciously murdered Elise Hensley. Hensley had also been involved with the hobo community and had the cat sign in her window that meant "Kind Lady Lives Here." She would invite the hungry in, knowing that this was what God had given to her as a mission to help...

Now that same sign had been scrawled on the wall where she had been murdered, and Parnell shared what it meant, as well as other information about the community and possible members who could have turned against Hensley. Of course, with The Burn Man back, he was the obvious killer...Parnell and Clyde immediately went back to the camp, where she inspected what had been left of his personal area... the evidence showed that he had tried to bury/burn his uniform which was covered with Elise's blood. Parnell was not convinced...

Of course, Parnell is the lead character; however, the author's skill in creating the scenes and actions for Parnell is amazing in a debut novel. She covers a variety of issues--PTSD, the homeless, railroads and indepth information about what happens in an emergency. When Nickless decided to write about a railroad cop, after being in the Marines, she has given us a sensational hero who doesn't know she's a hero... She's given us a caring, vulnerable, and scared little girl that talks herself into being a brave woman who obsessively works her job to bring justice to the dead... While dealing with her own PTSD issues that involved a secret pact...that turned out to involve...The Burn Man...

The characters and the storyline are unique, undeniably exciting, yet, a major contribution to what happens to those who serve in the military...and are then expected to return home to their own lives. Many do; but sadly, many don't. They become wanderers like The Burn Man who believes he can no longer live a normal life, but still hopes and looks for love... Or they stay in a position where their major skills are used to continue the fight of good versus evil. One of the special highlights for me was that each chapter starts with what is, supposedly, personal writing from Parnell--we are able to learn so much about her just in that small but important addition to the book series. Deserves Extra Kudos!

When I finished this first book, I immediately went out to see if the second book was available... Look for my review soon. This first book has a more complex, diverse set of issues, while the second moves into a specific case(s). There is no doubt, however, that this will be a major series and I highly recommend you start with this debut! You'll be missing one of the best I've read in a long time and, of course, it became a personal favorite for 2018. Whew! Can't say enough about this great book. Check it out!


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Barbara Nickless promised her mother she'd be a novelist when she grew up. What could be safer than sitting at a desk all day? But an English degree and a sense of adventure took her down other paths--technical writer, raptor rehabilitator, astronomy instructor, sword fighter, piano teacher and journalist. Now an award-winning author, she spends her free time snowshoeing, caving and hiking the Colorado Rockies. Connect with her at www.barbaranickless.com.